[15:34] nobi: hello how r u

[15:34] nobi: :P

[15:34] jotwani: o how r u

[15:34] nobi: OH the emote is working btw gogo pumpu

[15:34] gogo: lol.. why are you singing this? =P

[15:34] nobi: :D

[15:34] nobi: :P

[15:34] nobi: coz i saw it on tv

[15:35] nobi: :P

[15:35] shrem: hehehehe

[15:35] gogo: tehehe

[15:35] nobi: subah subha jab khidki khole

[15:35] shrem: hows the weather at bahrain chandigarh and bombay?

[15:35] nobi: bajju walli ladki haayee

[15:35] nobi: :P

[15:35] jotwani: baju wali ladki

[15:35] shrem: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[15:35] nobi: its coolddd

[15:35] jotwani: :P

[15:35] gogo: aahahahahaa

[15:35] shrem: same here mastttt

[15:35] gogo: kill me nobi. kill me.

[15:35] gogo: =P

[15:35] shrem: eh

[15:36] shrem: nobi kyu

[15:36] shrem: use your own naakhun

[15:36] nobi: nahi i will torture yu aisse

[15:36] gogo: bombay is very mast right now. lekin tum log mat ana =P

[15:36] nobi: killne mein maza kya

[15:36] shrem: eh eh eh

[15:36] nobi: shit i mean maarne mein

[15:36] jotwani: main aa raha hoooonnnn

[15:36] shrem: killne me

[15:36] gogo: killne mein? =P

[15:36] shrem: heheehe

[15:36] shrem: mast

[15:36] jotwani: hehe

[15:36] gogo: you on drugs? =P

[15:36] jotwani: haha

[15:36] nobi: SHHHHHHHHHH

[15:36] nobi: :P

[15:36] gogo: hehee.. okay

[15:36] shrem: metamphetayeen

[15:36] gogo: =P

[15:36] jotwani: ?

[15:37] nobi: lol what?

[15:37] shrem: drug drug

[15:37] gogo: oye chemist ki dukaan

[15:37] shrem: =P

[15:37] nobi: oh

[15:37] nobi: crystal meth

[15:37] nobi: :P

[15:37] shrem: lol

[15:37] shrem: =P

[15:37] gogo: I DONT LIKE CHEMISTRY =/

[15:37] shrem: billie joe armstrong ka favorite drug. lol what are we takin about? =P

[15:38] gogo: punkster? billi joe armstrong sunke wahi yaad ata hai

[15:38] gogo: =P

[15:38] shrem: yessss

[15:38] shrem: =P

[15:38] jotwani: hahaha

[15:38] shrem: oi nobi

[15:38] shrem: gone?

[15:38] nobi: lol

[15:38] nobi: haha

[15:38] nobi: nahi re

[15:38] shrem: okay okay

[15:38] nobi: i should give u guys time to miss me

[15:38] nobi: :P

[15:38] jotwani: sehmi si baithi hui hai..!

[15:38] jotwani: :P

[15:39] shrem: voicechat ko record karke podcast maar. jus thinkin.

[15:39] gogo: lol.. you give us enough time already.

[15:39] nobi: haan even i was thinking

[15:39] jotwani: u give us enough time gogo

[15:39] shrem: sochhh

[15:39] nobi: but its poss only on skype

[15:39] gogo: eyy.. i come and reply. nobi doesnt. never.

[15:39] shrem: bohhhot time deti hai nobia bohhhot time do kilo time.

[15:39] nobi: :O

[15:39] nobi: kuchbhi

[15:39] shrem: sahi bola gogs

[15:39] nobi: too much haan gogs

[15:39] nobi: arrre

[15:39] gogo: dekh. pumpu bhi maaning.

[15:40] shrem: sab PINCH!

[15:40] nobi: tum dono toh

[15:40] shrem: pich pich

[15:40] nobi: team up against me

[15:40] nobi: :(

[15:40] nobi: jotwani?

[15:40] nobi: (A)

[15:40] gogo: jotwani confused =P

[15:40] shrem: o bhi apne saath *slips a ten rupee note*

[15:40] gogo: hahaa

[15:40] nobi: :O

[15:40] jotwani: ya.. m in too.. nobi ke against

[15:40] nobi: hawwwwwwwwww

[15:40] shrem: ye le

[15:40] nobi: satyanash

[15:40] jotwani: n even gogo is no less

[15:40] nobi: 10 rupee ki note ke liye jotwani

[15:40] jotwani: haha

[15:40] jotwani: :P

[15:40] shrem: chal 10 pound

[15:41] gogo: eh jotwani.. 10 cheap tha bahut.. i thought we'd have to bargain =P

[15:41] shrem: khush reh

[15:41] nobi: hahah

[15:41] jotwani: hahaha..

[15:41] nobi: dekh lia bass

[15:41] shrem: kya dekh liya

[15:41] nobi: sab log mere khilaf

[15:41] shrem: sab boling

[15:41] shrem: soch ab

[15:41] jotwani: *changes side*

[15:41] gogo: lol

[15:41] nobi: :O

[15:41] gogo: dal badlu

[15:41] nobi: yess

[15:41] jotwani: nobi u r rite

[15:41] nobi: hehe

[15:41] gogo: bin painde ka lota.. jotwani =P

[15:41] jotwani: huh

[15:41] jotwani: :P

[15:41] shrem: RETURN MY 10 POUNDS isssssi wakt.

[15:41] nobi: *passes meth to jotz

[15:41] gogo: hahaha

[15:42] jotwani: chuop reh gogo

[15:42] jotwani: crime master kahin ki

[15:42] gogo: main?

[15:42] gogo: =O

[15:42] nobi: lol

[15:42] gogo: maine kya kiya?

[15:42] shrem: hehe main audience. lado lado.

[15:42] gogo: *puppy eyes*

[15:42] nobi: haan haan crime master

[15:42] nobi: daant ti rehti hai

[15:42] jotwani: tune apni trip dates tak confirm nahi ki naa

[15:42] gogo: lol

[15:43] jotwani: gogo

[15:43] gogo: toh main crime master kaise? =/ college walo ne bataya hi nahi toh meri kya fault?

[15:43] jotwani: crime master ko isme confuse mat kar..

[15:43] shrem: hawwwww gogs.

[15:43] gogo: arey?

[15:43] gogo: pumpu tu bhi?

[15:43] shrem: just taking bada. yaad kar?

[15:43] shrem: kya kiya tha tune?

[15:43] shrem: badla*

[15:43] jotwani: sab tere against.. haan maine pumpu ko 5 dollar diye the..!

[15:43] jotwani: :P

[15:43] gogo: hehe.. nobi ke yahan pe baadal su su karring =P

[15:43] nobi: kya kiya tha?

[15:44] nobi: haha haan na

[15:44] shrem: gogs bohhhot hi devil hai I'm tellin you

[15:44] gogo: maine kuch nahi

[15:44] shrem: ohhhh

[15:44] shrem: inorbit

[15:44] gogo: =P

[15:44] shrem: mere against team up

[15:44] gogo: it wasnt me

[15:44] gogo: i swear

[15:44] shrem: naatak

[15:44] gogo: sab wo olmyt

[15:44] shrem: oi

[15:44] shrem: tu olmyt ke saath team up hui

[15:44] gogo: i did bilkul nothing

[15:44] nobi: :O

[15:45] nobi: sab pol khulling teri gogs

[15:45] shrem: gogs backstabber.

[15:45] jotwani: gogo = go go

[15:45] jotwani: :P

[15:45] gogo: =(

[15:45] shrem: back ko na, aise, aise naakhun se stb

[15:45] shrem: stab.

[15:45] nobi: aur mujhe yaad hai..2nd std mein

[15:45] shrem: yessss bol nobi bol

[15:45] nobi: tune na uss ladki ko mara tha

[15:45] nobi: woh bechari

[15:45] jotwani: ye bachpan kahan se aa gaya beech mein..?!

[15:45] shrem: yessssss I knew it

[15:46] gogo: eh.. tujhe yaad bhi nahi tha ki we were in the same class.. liar

[15:46] shrem: just cuz woh ladki ne bhi pink socks pehne the.

[15:46] gogo: hehehee

[15:46] nobi: wohi tou!

[15:46] jotwani: pumpu u wer also in d same skool..??

[15:46] shrem: height.

[15:46] gogo: yeahpossible hai phir

[15:46] nobi: laga dia thappad

[15:46] shrem: I was the clerk.

[15:46] gogo: =Ppink socks. yuck

[15:46] nobi: lol

[15:46] nobi: haha

[15:46] nobi: clerk lmao

[15:46] nobi: :D

[15:46] nobi: peon bol

[15:46] gogo: heehee

[15:46] jotwani: pink socks pehenne ki sazaa

[15:47] shrem: Clerk clerk

[15:47] shrem: =P

[15:47] shrem: peon chal

[15:47] shrem: peon

[15:47] nobi: hahah

[15:47] gogo: i remember .. i was late for an exam once.. 1.05 ko pohonchi to pumpu natak kar raha tha.. liya nahi andar

[15:47] shrem: I was the peon

[15:47] gogo: huh

[15:47] shrem: yes

[15:47] nobi: mujhe yaad hai u used to slip toffees to me

[15:47] nobi: itni cute thi main

[15:47] jotwani: gogo bachpan se hi currupt thi

[15:47] shrem: woh jise tune chaata maara.... woh meri padosi ki beti thi.

[15:47] jotwani: haha lmao

[15:47] gogo: lol

[15:47] nobi: lolll

[15:48] shrem: aaah. padosi.

[15:48] nobi: jotwani tu kya kar raha tha uss wakt

[15:48] gogo: toh sab teri fault.. how could you let padosi ki beti wear pink socks?!

[15:48] shrem: I gifted her the pink socks on here 5th  birthday.

[15:48] nobi: :P

[15:48] gogo: dekha.. i knew it. you were the culprit.

[15:48] jotwani: main uss pink socks wali ke peeche baith ke tamasha dekh raha tha..

[15:49] shrem: nahi

[15:49] shrem: I remember

[15:49] shrem: jotwani was is in chandigarh.

[15:49] nobi: hahah

[15:49] shrem: koi public school me poem

[15:49] shrem: peon

[15:49] shrem: *

[15:49] jotwani: nahi.. i came to chd 4 yrs bak

[15:49] gogo: hehe... jotwani jhoota.. jhootwani? =P

[15:49] nobi: hahaha

[15:49] shrem: tryin for a transfer to nobi ka school

[15:49] gogo: uske pehle delhi mein tha... dekha dekha.. jhoothwani

[15:49] gogo: =P

[15:49] shrem: teri waani jhoot hai.

[15:49] jotwani: usse pehle bumbai mein

[15:50] nobi: lol

[15:50] jotwani: tune kabhi peeche mudke dekha hi nahi gogo

[15:50] nobi: :P

[15:50] shrem: ki seeti kisne maari?

[15:50] shrem: dekh

[15:50] nobi: hahaha

[15:50] gogo: lol

[15:50] jotwani: haha

[15:50] gogo: =P

[15:50] jotwani: lol

[15:50] shrem: 5 saal ki ladki pe seeti

[15:50] jotwani: seeti peon ne maari thi

[15:51] shrem: main second A me saaf safaayi kar raha tha.

[15:51] gogo: hehee.. nobi tujhe pata hai? seeti kisne maari?

[15:51] shrem: ek ladke ne ulti ki thi

[15:51] shrem: ugh

[15:51] gogo: hehee

[15:51] jotwani: hehe

[15:51] nobi: lollll hahahah

[15:51] nobi: haan jhootwani ne marri thi seeti

[15:51] gogo: 2nd A.. nobi? sounds familiar na? did you see anyone doin saaf safai?

[15:51] nobi: maine dekha

[15:51] shrem: hence proved

[15:51] gogo: =/

[15:51] jotwani: tu bhi mere against..

[15:51] gogo: i didnt

[15:51] jotwani: i didnt.. mujhe to aaj tak seeti maarna nahi aataaaaa

[15:51] shrem: phir amit pe case hua

[15:51] jotwani: :(

[15:52] shrem: n he was transfered back to chandigarh.

[15:52] gogo: na naa.. nobi tu choti thi naa... tujhe yaad nahi

[15:52] nobi: :P

[15:52] gogo: wo peon ne maari thi

[15:52] nobi: ho sakta hai

[15:52] jotwani: peon hi tha

[15:52] shrem: dusra peon.

[15:52] gogo: jhoothwani ko abhi bhi seeti marni nhi aati

[15:52] gogo: bechara

[15:52] gogo: =P

[15:52] nobi: arre woh dustpan lekar saaf karte karte seeti maarii thi usne

[15:52] shrem: nahi woh saas leta hai to seeti baji. sardi thi use.

[15:52] jotwani: haan bechara.. but not joothwani..

[15:52] jotwani: tujhe kaise pata.. tu to keh raha tha ki to second A mein tha

[15:53] jotwani: jootha

[15:53] shrem: to

[15:53] shrem: window

[15:53] gogo: there are no windows between classes. pooch nobi ko

[15:53] shrem: *caps lock* DHAKKKAN

[15:53] shrem: there were... ventilators.

[15:53] gogo: nope

[15:53] shrem: in principals room.

[15:53] gogo: phass gaya pumpu

[15:53] shrem: saaf karkemm

[15:53] jotwani: phass gayaaaa

[15:53] shrem: main gaya tha udhar.

[15:54] gogo: principal's room was in different building!

[15:54] shrem: toh

[15:54] jotwani: haha

[15:54] jotwani: phir se

[15:54] gogo: toh?

[15:54] shrem: udhar tha.. main.

[15:54] gogo: there are no cam's.. kuch nahi dikhta

[15:54] jotwani: ventilator across 2 buildings ..

[15:54] jotwani: ?

[15:54] jotwani: haha

[15:54] gogo: lol

[15:54] shrem: maine seeti maari thi.

[15:54] gogo: nobi? so gayi?

[15:55] gogo: miss kar liya tujhe.. aja wapis

[15:55] jotwani: haha

[15:55] nobi: :P

[15:55] jotwani: sach bola pumpu

[15:55] nobi: hehe

[15:55] jotwani: finally

[15:55] jotwani: isne apne padosi ki beti ko seeti maari

[15:55] shrem:  woh jise chaata maara tha tune, uski mom peeche khadi thi tere. Oh gulabbo.

[15:55] jotwani: issi liye desh se nikaal diya

[15:55] gogo: and hence Mr. pumpu was found guilty of whistling at a 5 yr old girl. =P

[15:56] gogo: saza ke taur par.. inhe Vellore bheja gaya

[15:56] shrem: ughhhhhhhhhhhh

[15:56] gogo: =P

[15:56] gogo: hehehee

[15:56] jotwani: :P

[15:56] nobi: whan bhi baaz nahi aya

[15:56] nobi: canteen walle ki beti par

[15:56] gogo: tehehe

[15:56] jotwani: waise woh ladki to dekho.. she's still his padosi

[15:56] gogo: tabhi wo ganda sambhar deing isko

[15:57] nobi: hehe

[15:57] shrem: main side me baithke apni roti khaake chala jaat hu.

[15:57] jotwani: tabhi country se bhi nikaal diya

[15:57] gogo: =P

[15:57] shrem: ok khatam khatam

[15:57] nobi: :P

[15:57] shrem: pehle nobi then gogs then ami then main

[15:57] shrem: bas bas abs

[15:57] shrem: BASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[15:57] gogo: hehehe

[15:57] nobi: acha

[15:57] nobi: soney

[15:57] nobi: me goes

[15:57] shrem: are?

[15:57] jotwani: ye lo

[15:57] nobi: tired

[15:58] nobi: sachi

[15:58] jotwani: huh

[15:58] nobi: shapath

[15:58] jotwani: ?

[15:58] shrem: iska hamesha ka naatak hai

[15:58] gogo: =|

[15:58] nobi: :P

[15:58] jotwani: nautanki

[15:58] nobi: :(

[15:58] nobi: maine bola tha

[15:58] nobi: gogs ko

[15:58] nobi: :(

[15:58] jotwani: gogssss

[15:58] nobi: bol na gogi

[15:58] jotwani: kahan hai

[15:58] shrem: paani pi paani

[15:58] jotwani: gogi thinking

[15:58] gogo: bery issmart.. pehle hi bol diya tha.,, ki i wanna sleep. nahi baat karne., huh

[15:58] nobi: :O

[15:58] nobi: arree

[15:58] nobi: tauba

[15:58] jotwani: joothi no.2 nobi

[15:58] nobi: galat matlab ekdum

[15:59] nobi: chal be jhootwani

[15:59] nobi: :P

[15:59] gogo: lol

[15:59] gogo: chal be? how tapori

[15:59] gogo: =P

[15:59] nobi: haina? how cool

[15:59] jotwani: india ke bahar jaate hi sab jooth bolne lag jaate hain.. sighhh

[15:59] shrem: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh

[15:59] shrem: makes sense

[15:59] nobi: :O

[15:59] gogo: desh drohi

[15:59] shrem: nobi ne seeti maari thi

[15:59] nobi: ARRE

[15:59] shrem: mujhe aur amit ko phasaane ke liye

[15:59] shrem: only tapori here

[15:59] nobi: hahah

[15:59] shrem: AAAAHHHHAAA

[15:59] nobi: shit

[16:00] nobi: :P

[16:00] shrem: awsaam.

[16:00] gogo: awsaam =P

[16:00] shrem: kya senti story thi *sob*

[16:00] shrem: nobi ki wajah se,

[16:00] nobi: hahaha i wana blog this

[16:00] shrem: main vellore me,

[16:00] shrem: ami chandigarh

[16:00] shrem: amit*

[16:01] gogo: hehee.. kar blog.. btw.. podcast? kitna time se nahi kiya? =/

so much fun =)

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I'm Henry the 8th I am. Henry the 8th I am I am. I got married to the widow next door. She's been married seven times before.

Back to xanga after a while!

Everything is fine, right..I've got a really good job, awesome infact, mum doesn't nag me all day coz I come home late and I almost get a royal treatment. I went shopping last week which usually makes my spirits soar high up up and away. [just felt like saying that]I've even shed a few pounds since i started yoga. It's all really good. Phir kyon depressed ho pagal?

Pata nahi, I really dont know. It feels like I'm missing out on something. Feels incomplete. Now that 2 of the few important people in my life aren't really in my life anymore, I can't seem to find a replacement. There never will be, I guess. Friends just don't come in your life like that. And they can't be substituted with, especially when they leave such a deep imprint and a hollow in your damn life.

What am I bickering about? Its not as if its the same for them. I've always had this problem right, when I give someone a whole part of my life, and I cant get it back. I've always given my all to the people I love, and it hurts to know that it doesn't hurt them.
Reminds me of a phrase "Don't make someone your priority, when you are just an option for them". Too late for that now.

Its funny how I've never asked for anything of anyone and yet I've lost everything. I really haven't. I look back and I realize that there is nothing I wouldn't do for a stranger, let alone my own friends. But I guess I'm not even allowed to have an opinion. Opinions hurt bigtime. I can't really believe it. It was like this blazing, raging storm that wooshed across my life and everything was over.
Nothing's left. No space for understanding, forgiveness, and old times. Years of laughter and a night of storm.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head.